Just had a really really pointless row with my kind-of-ex on the phone. I acted like a complete idiot. I just said lots of things that were really uncalled for. I'm an idiot, someone should stop me ruining other people's lives. I'm fairly certain he dislikes me intensely now. Why does everything always have to happen when I'm in a bad way?
I've been thinking over the past few days, thinking of doing it again. It just seems the easy way out I know. I'm a fucking COWARD. And i know there's so many people worse off than me. I'm lucky, I know. I KNOW. But still. I'll probably be deleting this entry soon, I absolutely hate it when I'm like this and I decide to write here.
My friend Andrew thinks I'm sick. He thinks there's something wrong with me.