Quick Pain-free update:
Bright Eyes gig - life affirming.
Holiday in Paris - wonderful. Enjoyed it so much. Have arranged to move there with Ben soon.
I asked the boy I like out, but he said no. It's not me, it's him. Hm.
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I'm mostly feeling pretty down today. The house is empty and I don't want to be on my own at all. I want someone to talk to more than anything, but no-one's around. For once there's no movies I want to watch, no places I want to go, just people I want to see, and I can't call any of them. They're too far away now.
I'm listening to "Most Of The Time" by Bob Dylan (The man on the left of this screen!).
Most of the time
I'm clear focused all around,
Most of the time
I can keep both feet on the ground,
I can follow the path, I can read the signs,
Stay right with it, when the road unwinds,
I can handle whatever I stumble upon,
I don't even notice she's gone,
Most of the time.
Most of the time
It's well understood,
Most of the time
I wouldn't change it if I could,
I can't make it all match up, I can hold my own,
I can deal with the situation right down to the bone,
I can survive, I can endure
And I don't even think about her
Most of the time.
Most of the time
My head is on straight,
Most of the time
I'm strong enough not to hate.
I don't build up illusion 'till it makes me sick,
I ain't afraid of confusion no matter how thick
I can smile in the face of mankind.
Don't even remember what her lips felt like on mine
Most of the time.
Most of the time
She ain't even in my mind,
I wouldn't know her if I saw her
She's that far behind.
Most of the time
I can't even be sure
If she was ever with me
Or if I was with her.
Most of the time
I'm halfway content,
Most of the time
I know exactly where I went,
I don't cheat on myself, I don't run and hide,
Hide from the feelings, that are buried inside,
I don't compromised and I don't pretend,
I don't even care if I ever see her again
Most of the time.
See you tomorrow.