Dear Felicity,
I know this is a cliche and I know I probably don't help at all, but you know that I wish I could. I don't claim to completely understand anything that is happening or has happened to you, but I do genuinely care. I'm not doing too well myself at the moment, so maybe that ups my compassion or something, I don't know. Just remember that I'm your friend, even though I wouldn't ever put pressure on you to share what you're going through with me, know that I give a shit, ok?
Claire x
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IN OTHER NEWS:
- I got into Batley School of Art for pre-BA foundation next year. I thought the interview wasn't going well because the interviewer and I had conflicting views on things, but in the end he was very impressed with me and offered me a place then and there. I'm very pleased that I got in, and that this whole process has finally come to an end and I can relax.
- Sin City is fucking amazing.
- I got 'Derek and Clive Get The Horn' on DVD, after only previously having borrowed it from someone. It's fantastic but very sad in parts. I also think it's really funny, but from some of the reviews I've read I haven't got that impression.
- I recently watched 'Gladiator' with all the non-Joaquin Phoenix bits cut out, which was nice. I subsequently carried out some 'research' (i.e. staring at pictures on the internet) and found a fantastically tacky and scarily comprehensive site, joaquinphoenix.net which has been entertaining me for a while. I haven't got onto the 'fan fiction' section yet, but I'm excited.
- The alcohol 'thing' is coming back. I can't remember writing the last 8 pages in my journal and am unable to read them back to myself, which is always a bad sign. I feel the 'need' to have a drink more too. I need to stop this before it gets out of control again. Apart from that I've been doing quite well recently, which is hard to adjust to. Strange that, after spending the past 6 months or so wishing I could be back to 'normal' I can't get used to 'normal'. So many questions. That I'd rather leave unanswered.